Confidence Overdrive

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I made this with my cockiness in mind. While I do feel confident in myself, on rare occasions I become so confident that it gets the best of me, giving off the impression that I’m arrogant and hard to work with. I forget the repercussions momentarily and boast my ability (usually through my actions) until I “trip and fall”. It throws me off my game, embarrases me, and forces my cockiness to revert back to reasonable confidence after I get over the embarrassment. I represent myself being overly confident by making a colossal version of myself with raging, out of control flames that light my surroundings ablaze. The regular sized version of me represents my sense of reason trying to find a way to knock down my ego trip. The water and my signature trident further emphasizes the “regular” me since I’m well known for making art that’s primarily aquatic. This photo is similar to (and mildly inspired by) the encounter between the X-Men and Dark Phoenix. The song Ritual by SHARDEM, PULSE, and SOJHI came to mind when making this because its bassy instrumental make up sounds like a vs. battle to me, and the dark tone gives it a serious, apocalyptic vibe.

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The Flare Up

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I made this edit to personify my confidence. To me, the fire element can represent bravery, fierceness and influence. To match the flames, I put on a cold shoulder top (I know, ironic) I found in fashion nova. I rarely wear this top because it’s pretty difficult to put on and take off. I have to be real careful to avoid tearing it. Anyway, this is the first part of an arc I want to do. I currently have two parts, and will begin working on part 3 after this piece. I put a decent amount of flames in this photo to show that I’m in my early stages of confidence. My fire is strong, but balanced. It ignited after going through a spiritual experience when I turned 15, and realizing a variety of things on how society works at 18. This allowed me to destroy my mental (and some social) barriers to become who I am today. As a result, I became fearless, and no one could contain the fire. The next part takes a slightly darker turn, so next Friday I’ll talk about how these flames can become too much for a person.

Dazzling Gleam

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As much as I enjoy using aquatic and metallic elements in my art, I also enjoy using other elements. The grass type (I’m speaking pokemon language, so google if you don’t understand) is my choice of alternate elements for today, because it’s what I feel like posting. There is no deep meaning to this piece. I love how my pose came out, and decided to add leaves as my “power” because of how well it matches my kimono. I also added the pink light where my hands reach up to make it look like it’s the head of a flower, while the rest of me can be seen as the stem and leaves of it. I arranged the effects in a way that makes me look radiant and majestic, and even went so far as to change the hue of the photo a little to give the illusion of me radiating an off-green aura.

The Social Sea Dweller

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There are a few of reasons I why I created the edited images. The more obvious reasons are because of me being a Pisces, a water sign, and the symbol it’s represented by. But that’s not all there is to these edits. These images represent my inability to relate to most people, and my preference to be by myself. I can’t relate to those who say they suffer from depression. Whenever I see a meme describing a scene by labeling them, it’s usually about their problems. An example is a photo of some dude being jumped by a group of dudes. The guy being jumped is labeled “Me”, and each of the attackers are labeled “School, bills, anxiety, stress, my crippling depression”. While I do find those memes pretty amusing, I don’t find them relatable, because I don’t suffer from any type of depression, school doesn’t stress me out (cause I don’t care about my major), if I do have anxiety, it’s very mild, I’m generally a relaxed and happy person, and I won’t be worrying about bills because I’m pretty cheap. I also don’t relate to others when it comes to trends and movies, shows and entertainment in general. I don’t keep up with the Kartrashains, I know nothing of a lot of music because I find a lot of it annoying or boring. Because of the aforementioned reasons, people find me pretty boring, or find it difficult to have conversations with me. It makes me feel like I’m socially out of place, which inspired me to put myself as a sea dweller, living far off of the trends and entertainment. It’s not necessarily a bad thing however, because I can be by myself in peace. I may not relate to most, but I do find myself in a storm of socialization. After a day of talking to various people the last thing I want to do is speak. I just want to be alone, and drown out the sound of everyone. The image of me in the fishbowl doesn’t represent anything though. I just never thought of putting myself in a fishbowl in the past, and took advantage of the thought. The last photo is just to show you what the photo looked like before I transformed it.

The Two-Spirit Warrior

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       I am Neptunite. I am the manifestation of the love between my masculinity and femininity. My anchor flail represents my strength, and my trident represents my style. With my masculinity and femininity comes my heroic side, and is mostly present in my digital art. Through my edits, I bring fantasy and reality closer to each other, letting my imagination create various effects and scenarios (some have meaning, some are just for visual appeal).

Neptunite is alias I came up with out of inspiration of the fusion concept of the show Steven Universe, my general interest in gemstones, because it sounds really cool, my zodiac (Pisces) and ruling planet (Neptune), and my progression to self love and empowerment. The concept of fusion in SU is that it’s the ultimate connection between gems. Some gems fuse for utility purposes (Like Amethyst and Pearl fusing into Opal), some for casual existence as one being, and others fuse as a result of love for one another. Along with their forms combining into a new gem, their personalities combine in the process, making the new being a blend of the two component gems. I relate to this concept because I am Two-Spirit, a blend of masculine and feminine. By representation/symbolism, I can see myself as a fusion between a totally masculine and a totally feminine version of myself. The result of the fusion is a man with a taste in both masculine and feminine clothing, and a strong sense of security and self love. I don’t fall on the far end of masculinity or femininity, placing me in the middle. Because of this (and a little bit of acting), I can be different levels of masculine or feminine depending on who I’m around. Knowing this, along with the fact that my Zodiac is a water sign ruled by a planet that is essentially frozen water and has a lot of metal in it, I chose the gemstone called Neptunite.

My former alias used to be Aurora-V, because the aurora part of the name represented my bright and colorful personality, and the V represented a pair of wings as a sign of rebirth (think Phoenix), which represents the times I’ve been knocked down by people who hate me, and the fact that I always “rise from the ashes” stronger than ever. The aforementioned meaning still stands even after changing my alias to Neptunite, because it’s a part of my past and how I became who I am today.

My style is very androgynous and futuristic. I love fusing masculine and feminine clothing into one outfit; I’ll love it even more if there’s some aquatic or futuristic design to it. My favorite outfit is one I put together around 4 years ago. It has the most balance between masculine and feminine out all of my other outfits and has that heroic, yet classy and professional appearance to it. I wore it for the first time in years with minor differences. The button up shirt and the heels were the only thing that changed (I still have the original button up, but it’s deodorant stained, which is annoying to walk around with).

I took the original photo by setting my phone camera on timer (10 seconds), and as it started snapping, I jumped into the shot. I then added the second set of arms by erasing the background of another photo of me. I erased everything except my arms, and then merged it with the image I worked on. After that I took my transparent image of water, metal, my trident and my anchor flail (which I turned silver and added gemstones to), blended them into my photo, and erased parts of it so that it looks like I’m holding my weapons and that the water overlaps and is overlapped by them. I used a different water transparent image on my Anchor to add an aquatic aura effect on it. The image used on my anchor was also used on my original set of arms. My second set of arms were turned silver using an image of twisting metal. I positioned it on the second set of arms and erased until it covered only my arms. I wasn’t intending to make the bottom left (your left) arm have the stripe pattern on it, but left it because it looks like some type of gauntlet. Also, the bit of metal under it looks like a metallic energy blade, which is perfect since my heroic persona has the power of hydrokinesis and ferrokinesis (metal manipulation). Finally, I added a filter to change the lighting a little, and my personal symbol (which now has my alias under it). This is my first image for the semester because I like to start and finish a semester with a bang. I also made this the first image of the semester because the outfit I have on is my absolute favorite out of my entire wardrobe.

Wave Breaker Neptunite

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This has to be the most bad ass edit I’ve ever done of myself, and I’m extremely proud of it. It took me a while to find a name for these photos, because I wanted a title that sounds good to me. I call the photos “Wave Breaker Neptunite” because not only is my “signature ability” hydrokinesis, but I went ahead and gave myself a signature weapon (a blade) that has an appearance as malleable as water, and can split into multiple swords. It turns to steel once I finalize its appearance for the time being, and I summon two smaller blades from my gems (on my left and right forearm) and fuse them into the blades you see in two of my photos. Also, I decided to give the blade the ability to split tsunamis in half, because this is my imagination, and anything I say goes!  I found what I think is the best place to get transparent images, which is where I found the blade in the third photo, and the water silhouettes of the whale and the shark trailing off of it. The stones were also found from the said website, and I’ve downloaded so much more since then! Anyway, I made these images to play around with the new transparent images I got off of the website, and to play around with the motion blur effect. I recently got into making it look like the photo was caught as I was in motion, even though I was standing perfectly still. Aside from making the photo not believable, but in some sense, logical, I look like a character off of a movie, since my facial expression and pose matches the heroic theme. The musical notes from the first image were put based on my ability to sing. The lights bursting from the ground give ma a theatrical/grand entrance (like my favorite fusion, Sardonyx), and the waves that surround me give me that “from the sea” impression, because that image is supposed to make it look like two smaller versions of myself (my masculine and my feminine side) fusing into me, a combination of the two. Another representation of these images is of my discovery of my tastes, my personality, and me fighting against those who try to downplay my happiness and security in myself in favor of their own ideals. The placement of my second set of arms was inspired by Sardonyx from Steven Universe, because of how aesthetic she makes it look. The background in the second image represent my love of futuristic stuff, as well as the Steel type half of my fusion.

 

Ocean’s Posession

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My obsession with elemental projections of animals/spirits hasn’t ended! I went to central park one day with two of my coworkers  because one of them (Jojo) wanted to explore NYC (she’s from Texas). We were enjoying the scenery when I realized that Aneesa (my other coworker) had a professional camera. I instantly lit up and told her that we should take photos. She agreed, and before you know it we took pictures in various parts of the park, including the Metropolitan Museum of  Art (which this photo was taken at). I noticed a water fountain nearby and became inspired. I struck various poses before finally using this photo for my next manipulation. I originally had my friend take this photo because I noticed the sun’s reflection in the water, and how it was reflecting off my eyes. When she sent me the photos, it wasn’t as clear; we could only see the white dot that was caused by the sun’s reflection. But because I liked my entranced facial expression, I chose to use this as my next piece. The concept of this photo is the idea of being controlled by a mystical force that takes the form of water, and can possess a certain race of aliens when an extremely bright light reflects off it. This causes the mystical water to hypnotize the being, allowing it to take over as it’s host. I wish I had a different outfit on at the time because I would’ve looked more badass, but sometimes you gotta live in the moment (in this case, the captured moment). I added the aqua dragon projections because it puts a face to what is “possessing” me. My blank face makes it look like i’m being used as a vessel by a hydra. I was originally going to use a different dragon, but the current one suited the photo better, since it could be more transparent than the other image without completely disappearing. I also turned my eyes blue with pupils because I was inspired by the eyes of the Jasper and Amethyst soldiers from Steven Universe. I found them to be aesthetically pleasing, so I made my own blue version from their purple (Amethyst) and yellow (Jasper).